Why do we struggle with surrendering our will to God’s will unconditionally?
It’s simple.
We’ve believed lies about His character.
Satan strategically lies to us about God.
He did it to Eve in the garden:
“Did God really say…. you’re not going to die.”
He’s still lying to us about God today.
Personally, as a teen, I used to believe that God was out to make me miserable because I was failing to perform perfectly.
I feared His lightning bolts, so outwardly I towed the line while inwardly I struggled.
I believed that if I surrendered my life to Him, He would make me be single, eat bugs and live in a jungle as a missionary.
My idea of roughing it is the Ramada.
Jungle living would make me miserable.
I spent the first 14 years of my life trying to live the Christian life in my own strength… just trying harder.
I was a miserable, critical, judgmental person, but I kept the list of do’s and don’ts.
When I was 21, I was so miserable that I finally fell on my knees and cried out for the Lord to either show me how this Christian thing worked or I quit.
The Lord had been patiently waiting for me to surrender.
It took me three days to own the Selfer’s Prayer that’s in my workbook The Way of the Cross.
The only regret I’ve ever had is that I didn’t pray it sooner.
Since then, He’s led me on a journey into deeper levels of trust and brokenness.
Beloved, ask the Holy Spirit to show you any lies that Satan has sold you on against the character of God.
Then ask Him to speak truth to those lies.
Trust and surrender your life and will to Jesus.
Healing will follow as you receive His life and live in His love.
Blessings!
Robyn Henning